De Jager
Puritan Board Junior
When I read the Psalms, I am touched by how the Psalmists often have such confidence in the Lord's fatherly care for them.
I have been plagued by a lack of assurance of faith for over 15 years. I have a hard time reading Psalms and believing that they can actually apply to me too. I have confidence that God is a father...I have doubts about whether is actually my father.
Oh how I would love to have the confidence that God is favourably disposed towards me.
And to be clear, I place no hope of salvation in any other than the person of Jesus Christ, and his work on the cross. I know there is no other way.
It is hard to explain but oftentimes when I read the scriptures I am not even comforted. In fact, I feel great anxiety. I feel a nervousness in my core that I cannot explain. It is depressing to say the least.
I feel like the Psalmist in Psalm 77 - my Spirit refuses to be comforted; when I think of God, I am troubled. The catechism teaches me that my only comfort in life and death is that I am not my own, but belong body and soul to my father - oh how I wish I could be assured that this is true.
I have been plagued by a lack of assurance of faith for over 15 years. I have a hard time reading Psalms and believing that they can actually apply to me too. I have confidence that God is a father...I have doubts about whether is actually my father.
Oh how I would love to have the confidence that God is favourably disposed towards me.
And to be clear, I place no hope of salvation in any other than the person of Jesus Christ, and his work on the cross. I know there is no other way.
It is hard to explain but oftentimes when I read the scriptures I am not even comforted. In fact, I feel great anxiety. I feel a nervousness in my core that I cannot explain. It is depressing to say the least.
I feel like the Psalmist in Psalm 77 - my Spirit refuses to be comforted; when I think of God, I am troubled. The catechism teaches me that my only comfort in life and death is that I am not my own, but belong body and soul to my father - oh how I wish I could be assured that this is true.