SoldierOfTheRock
Puritan Board Freshman
I realize that it may be my forgoing of the reading of scipture and almost any real prayer, but I have such a hard time believing anything the people in non-reformed churchs/chapels have to say. Unless I hear something good about them before they start speaking I normally turn them off. As far as worship goes, especially in chapel at my college, it is non-existant. I guess because I know so many of the people who lead it and the people who are singing all around me makes me hate it. (I know how they truly live, while I am no saint I do not try to pretend to be one... if saint is defined by a life that has some difference from the world around us.)
So what do I do? I have talked to some and they have brought up the idea that perhaps I am just not "saved", but even that phrase seems to be nowhere in scripture, which just makes me doubt the idea of what being "saved" is and how we go about evangilizing. Over all I just dont trust my college or the people here, and Ihave gathered a great cynicism considering the church. It used to be funny, but anymore it just scares me... sometimes I really believe the things I say.
I know here we poke fun at different things and it is ok because we know what it being said and why. I love some of the things that are said here, I find them quite humorous and truthful, but here it seems like it is a sin to see churches as being different in anyway.
For instance, one of the things my school is doing is doing what they call a "mystery church", which is basically something people sign up for and then on Sunday they are taken somewhere different, perhaps to increase "diversity" here on campus, but really know one goes to the same church as anyone else for any reasons other than personal preference... doctrine is not an issue.
So while I hate seeing all this and it bothers me so much, my cynicism and lack of any life that is different really keeps my mouth shut.
What is the real gospel?
So what do I need to do?
So what do I do? I have talked to some and they have brought up the idea that perhaps I am just not "saved", but even that phrase seems to be nowhere in scripture, which just makes me doubt the idea of what being "saved" is and how we go about evangilizing. Over all I just dont trust my college or the people here, and Ihave gathered a great cynicism considering the church. It used to be funny, but anymore it just scares me... sometimes I really believe the things I say.
I know here we poke fun at different things and it is ok because we know what it being said and why. I love some of the things that are said here, I find them quite humorous and truthful, but here it seems like it is a sin to see churches as being different in anyway.
For instance, one of the things my school is doing is doing what they call a "mystery church", which is basically something people sign up for and then on Sunday they are taken somewhere different, perhaps to increase "diversity" here on campus, but really know one goes to the same church as anyone else for any reasons other than personal preference... doctrine is not an issue.
So while I hate seeing all this and it bothers me so much, my cynicism and lack of any life that is different really keeps my mouth shut.
What is the real gospel?
So what do I need to do?