Yeah I aint going to get to deep into all this, but I used to be/ kinda still am a depressed kid. Well today was youthgroup and I went in feeling ok prayed to the Lord he would strengthen me (cuz I knew their would be many temptations) Well I get to talk to a girl I have known for a long time, and their is allot of drama and such going on with my friends at the moment (go figure ) So she talked to me, and suddenly.... I am feeling depressed. We are driving home from the Church and my stomach is just churning, I feel sick with grief... from where!? I know it has to deal with my friends, but I am getting irritable...stupid doubtful thoughts keep coming up, along with my strange reminisce of when I used to be able to talk and speak as I wanted sigh, and feeling misserable I can't say I feel in a "good" state of mind or faith at this moment. I don't know what I want, I want scriptures about these kind of feelings, I sat for the longest time listening to music before getting on here and thinking to myself "no I don't want to leave the Lord this world is fallen we are disgusting, sinners I don't want any of that" all while suddenly wishing I could I feel in disrepair at the moment and hope you guys have maybe sermons, scriptures, anything I can read.
(I know these things are best left to a pastor but as we can see its 9:30 and I got home from YG like an hour ago...)
(I know these things are best left to a pastor but as we can see its 9:30 and I got home from YG like an hour ago...)