O'GodHowGreatThouArt
Puritan Board Sophomore
Since around the age of 8, I have had a deathly fear of bees and wasps. A bumblebee stung me in the back of the ear then, and about a year later, a wasp nailed me in the forearm in cold blood.
Tonight, I met my fear....again. I was sitting at my desk talking with some friends online, when a bee swooped by my computer screen. I ran outside my room, then came back in when it seemed like there was no sign of it. Five minutes when by, then I hear two distinct "thuds" on the fan. A couple minutes later, I found a bee on the carpet, severely injured. I went over to my stack of copy paper, picked up one, climbed over my bed, and dropped it on the bee from 3 feet up. Nailed it.
I didn't trust that was it though, so I picked up four highlighters and started throwing them at the corner of my desk where I last saw the bee from my doorway. Nothing. Went back to the desk, thinking the one that was taken out was the only one. Told one of my friends about it, and actually said I was going to cry if a second one showed up (testament as to how terrified I was in hindsight). Not five minutes later, the bee I thought I took out flew by the back of my desk. Turns out it was intruder #2.
I skipped town and had to call my brother in to take it out. Let's just say my cowardice is going to be the brunt of the family joking book for the next "Insert long number here" years. The fact that they aren't saved doesn't make it any easier either, but that's beyond the point.
This kind of attitude towards such a sitaution cannot be biblical by any stretch of the imagination, because it is placing the implication that I am not trusting God in all things, and that I'm not willing to deal with a situation myself when it can be dealt without assistance. Not to mention its saying that a creature the size of my pinkie toe is able to rule the life of something 500x its size.
My fear of these things is controlling my life in these regards. Put a bee in my office in a workplace, and I'll never get anything done until it is exterminated. It's been at the point for many years now where all a bee has to do is glance at me, and I'll drop everything and dash off as fast as I possibly can in the other direction....preferably towards a place they can't get to easily.
My question is, how can such an issue be dealt with?
Tonight, I met my fear....again. I was sitting at my desk talking with some friends online, when a bee swooped by my computer screen. I ran outside my room, then came back in when it seemed like there was no sign of it. Five minutes when by, then I hear two distinct "thuds" on the fan. A couple minutes later, I found a bee on the carpet, severely injured. I went over to my stack of copy paper, picked up one, climbed over my bed, and dropped it on the bee from 3 feet up. Nailed it.
I didn't trust that was it though, so I picked up four highlighters and started throwing them at the corner of my desk where I last saw the bee from my doorway. Nothing. Went back to the desk, thinking the one that was taken out was the only one. Told one of my friends about it, and actually said I was going to cry if a second one showed up (testament as to how terrified I was in hindsight). Not five minutes later, the bee I thought I took out flew by the back of my desk. Turns out it was intruder #2.
I skipped town and had to call my brother in to take it out. Let's just say my cowardice is going to be the brunt of the family joking book for the next "Insert long number here" years. The fact that they aren't saved doesn't make it any easier either, but that's beyond the point.
This kind of attitude towards such a sitaution cannot be biblical by any stretch of the imagination, because it is placing the implication that I am not trusting God in all things, and that I'm not willing to deal with a situation myself when it can be dealt without assistance. Not to mention its saying that a creature the size of my pinkie toe is able to rule the life of something 500x its size.
My fear of these things is controlling my life in these regards. Put a bee in my office in a workplace, and I'll never get anything done until it is exterminated. It's been at the point for many years now where all a bee has to do is glance at me, and I'll drop everything and dash off as fast as I possibly can in the other direction....preferably towards a place they can't get to easily.
My question is, how can such an issue be dealt with?