A.Hudson
Puritan Board Freshman
Well I just felt like sharing this cause it has been on my heart for a while, but I'm not asking for a pitty party maybe just some wisdom in this area. I have been in Ministry for a few years now, and me and all my brothers and sisters I'm in ministry with do Christian rap I know, I know, a lot of people will look at it and say it's just music but to be honest the music is nothing, it's just a tool that we use to spread The Gospel, what really matters is what goes on after the music stops..we're really big on discipleship, evangelism, being sound in theology, teaching, missions, and by God's Grace He's allowed us to preach at certain events too, also has opened the door for certain brothers to do missions outside of the country. Anyways I've been in ministry a couple of years and I feel that only by His Grace GOD has used me and a lot of my other brothers and sisters in Christ for His Glory, and to testify of The Gospel of The Grace of GOD. But what has really hit me hard lately is a lot of my brothers I'm in ministry with are in Bible college, and some on there way to Seminary. And lately, I kind of feel like I'm the only one, (with the exception of a few other brothers) who attends a regular secular college. I would Love to attend Bible College even go to seminary one day, but by the loans I've already had to take out to pay for school looks like that won't be happening.
I'm in school for Graphic Design, and GOD has used it for His Glory only by His Grace, being that He's opened the doors for me to help out in the media department at the church, and met other solid brothers and sisters in Christ who design as well. But I feel like that in sooo many of my brothers it's evident that they will be called to be full time in Ministry, not just because of there education, but because u can almost see God's calling in there life now, just by how He uses them. I can see some who will be Pastors, some who will be teachers, or missionaries. We have a camp filled with solid brothers in the faith, who really go Hard for GOD. And I feel like I like to do Graphic Design no doubt, especially for GOD'S Glory...but I feel like I also want to do ministry, I'm not saying that I can't do both, and I understand Ministry is 24/7 it's not a job nor a position, it's a lifestyle weather your a pastor or you work at a grocery store. But I just feel like GOD has surrounded me with so many solid brothers (And thank GOD that He has allowed me to be) For they have influenced me heavily to be sound in doctrine and theology,turned me to other sound dudes in the faith, and also just have been great examples, of how True believers Live there lives.
But it seems now as we get older (Even though we're all still young, in our early and mid 20's,) (I Just turned 20) I can kinda see that GOD is leading people in the direction He wants them to go, some are in school for pastoral, some for missions, some to teach. And it seems like everyone knows what GOD is calling them to do except me. I know GOD has called me to be His Ambassador, He's called me to testify of The Gospel of Christ, die daily, and give my life away so other may see how much of a treasure Christ Truly is. But I feel like I don't know where I fit in in the Body of Christ, like my brothers do. Some know there called to pastor, or teach, or be a missionary I can see it, they have such a heart and passion to do it. I feel like I love learning about theology, and proper exegesis of the scriptures, and explaining things, but I'm not called to teach, I feel like I Love talking some may think I do to much but, I'm not called to pastor (Even though My grandfather did), I feel like I like to evangelize to old friends in my neighborhood (not the nicest) and would have no problem going to the mission fields, would actually Love too, But I'm not called to do it like Paul Washer and others do. It's not that I don't have a heart to do these things I DO! But I don't feel like I'm called in it full time like alot of my boys are, and it makes me really discouraged. I don't want to be Just a Christian Graphic Designer, I would give it up if GOD told me too! I feel like there's so much more, but I don't know what. I dont' feel I'm called to pastor like, Piper, or teach like Sproul and MacArthur, or some Seminary professors. I feel like GOD would still use me to teach, and minister which I LOVE, But I just wont be called to teach as well or like other great men of GOD that I look up to do. And I def don't have the education to. Not saying u have to go to Bible College or seminary to be sound in your theology, teaching, and doctrine, I know brothers who haven't and you would think they did. I just know that sometimes without an actually degree it can limit how far you go, so it seems. (But GOD in His Sovereignty is in Control of that) even though there's some with M.Div's that teach complete heresy.
(Anyway) I just feel like all my brothers have so much going for them in Ministry, and even though (By God's Grace) I'm side by side in ministry with them, ministered at several events, evangelized with them, discuss theology with them, I feel like down the road, they have so much ahead of them, especially the ones going to seminary. And I feel like I'm just stuck at a normal college. But Praise GOD I know it's His will for me to be there, being that He allowed me to tell other friends, and even my whole class The Gospel, the wrath of GOD, repentance, redemption the whole 9..also got to debate a little with my World Religions teacher on some of her beliefs which went well. But sometimes I still feel discouraged...have any of you ever been through this??? Any advice???
(P.S. a lot of Christian rap ministers we are very inspired by are apart of Reach Records Reach Home) They are partnered up with Desiring God ministries...There doing the Don't waste your life tour now. There songs are packed with a lot of what we like to call Lyrical theology. There also reformed. another is www.crossmovementrecords.com as well. You can also check out both of there channel's, and music video's/interviews on youtube..Reach records| Crossmovementrecords
I'm in school for Graphic Design, and GOD has used it for His Glory only by His Grace, being that He's opened the doors for me to help out in the media department at the church, and met other solid brothers and sisters in Christ who design as well. But I feel like that in sooo many of my brothers it's evident that they will be called to be full time in Ministry, not just because of there education, but because u can almost see God's calling in there life now, just by how He uses them. I can see some who will be Pastors, some who will be teachers, or missionaries. We have a camp filled with solid brothers in the faith, who really go Hard for GOD. And I feel like I like to do Graphic Design no doubt, especially for GOD'S Glory...but I feel like I also want to do ministry, I'm not saying that I can't do both, and I understand Ministry is 24/7 it's not a job nor a position, it's a lifestyle weather your a pastor or you work at a grocery store. But I just feel like GOD has surrounded me with so many solid brothers (And thank GOD that He has allowed me to be) For they have influenced me heavily to be sound in doctrine and theology,turned me to other sound dudes in the faith, and also just have been great examples, of how True believers Live there lives.
But it seems now as we get older (Even though we're all still young, in our early and mid 20's,) (I Just turned 20) I can kinda see that GOD is leading people in the direction He wants them to go, some are in school for pastoral, some for missions, some to teach. And it seems like everyone knows what GOD is calling them to do except me. I know GOD has called me to be His Ambassador, He's called me to testify of The Gospel of Christ, die daily, and give my life away so other may see how much of a treasure Christ Truly is. But I feel like I don't know where I fit in in the Body of Christ, like my brothers do. Some know there called to pastor, or teach, or be a missionary I can see it, they have such a heart and passion to do it. I feel like I love learning about theology, and proper exegesis of the scriptures, and explaining things, but I'm not called to teach, I feel like I Love talking some may think I do to much but, I'm not called to pastor (Even though My grandfather did), I feel like I like to evangelize to old friends in my neighborhood (not the nicest) and would have no problem going to the mission fields, would actually Love too, But I'm not called to do it like Paul Washer and others do. It's not that I don't have a heart to do these things I DO! But I don't feel like I'm called in it full time like alot of my boys are, and it makes me really discouraged. I don't want to be Just a Christian Graphic Designer, I would give it up if GOD told me too! I feel like there's so much more, but I don't know what. I dont' feel I'm called to pastor like, Piper, or teach like Sproul and MacArthur, or some Seminary professors. I feel like GOD would still use me to teach, and minister which I LOVE, But I just wont be called to teach as well or like other great men of GOD that I look up to do. And I def don't have the education to. Not saying u have to go to Bible College or seminary to be sound in your theology, teaching, and doctrine, I know brothers who haven't and you would think they did. I just know that sometimes without an actually degree it can limit how far you go, so it seems. (But GOD in His Sovereignty is in Control of that) even though there's some with M.Div's that teach complete heresy.
(Anyway) I just feel like all my brothers have so much going for them in Ministry, and even though (By God's Grace) I'm side by side in ministry with them, ministered at several events, evangelized with them, discuss theology with them, I feel like down the road, they have so much ahead of them, especially the ones going to seminary. And I feel like I'm just stuck at a normal college. But Praise GOD I know it's His will for me to be there, being that He allowed me to tell other friends, and even my whole class The Gospel, the wrath of GOD, repentance, redemption the whole 9..also got to debate a little with my World Religions teacher on some of her beliefs which went well. But sometimes I still feel discouraged...have any of you ever been through this??? Any advice???
(P.S. a lot of Christian rap ministers we are very inspired by are apart of Reach Records Reach Home) They are partnered up with Desiring God ministries...There doing the Don't waste your life tour now. There songs are packed with a lot of what we like to call Lyrical theology. There also reformed. another is www.crossmovementrecords.com as well. You can also check out both of there channel's, and music video's/interviews on youtube..Reach records| Crossmovementrecords
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