As I learn more about the Reformed faith (coming out of a doctrinally vague, non-denominational background a few years ago), I have quickly become aware of the seemingly countless number of issues assaulting our faith, whether it's Liberalism, Open Theism, NPP, general evangelical hostility towards Calvinism, etc. that I had no idea existed before. I am astounded at the amount of ink spilled covering these issues, and I frequently feel somewhat overwhelmed at how to navigate all of these disputes. While the church I attend and the sources I read all come from doctrinally sound backgrounds, how do I best go about defending/strengthening my beliefs without locking myself in an echo chamber? I'm aware that many on this board read from theological sources of all kinds and can effectively engage with them, but I myself don't feel confident or learned enough to engage these opposing views on my own, nor do I feel like that would be wise.
I would really like to just settle down and spend several years grounding myself in the works of the old dead guys to really strengthen the foundations of my faith (I'm currently going through the Institutes for the first time), but even now I worry about being intellectually dishonest by blocking out the outside noise. It's not that I crave controversy, I just constantly have nagging doubts that eat away at me until they're resolved. This continually draws back into the debate realm, and sometimes I wish I could just turn off that side of my brain to focus on more edifying elements of the faith.
This doubt/uncertainty has plagued me long before I became Reformed, and I will say I have found much comfort in now knowing that I've not become a Christian because I was the most unbiased or most intelligent seeker of truth, but that I was born again by God through His spirit.
Any and all wisdom would be greatly appreciated.
I would really like to just settle down and spend several years grounding myself in the works of the old dead guys to really strengthen the foundations of my faith (I'm currently going through the Institutes for the first time), but even now I worry about being intellectually dishonest by blocking out the outside noise. It's not that I crave controversy, I just constantly have nagging doubts that eat away at me until they're resolved. This continually draws back into the debate realm, and sometimes I wish I could just turn off that side of my brain to focus on more edifying elements of the faith.
This doubt/uncertainty has plagued me long before I became Reformed, and I will say I have found much comfort in now knowing that I've not become a Christian because I was the most unbiased or most intelligent seeker of truth, but that I was born again by God through His spirit.
Any and all wisdom would be greatly appreciated.