AnnaBanana
Puritan Board Freshman
I don't mean to vent but I have become exhausted lately by people that I just need some direction from an outside perspective.
I consider myself a kind person who tries to see the good in everyone. I try and go out of my way to make others feel welcome, loved, and respected. If someone asks a favor, I will do my best to help them the best that I can. If someone is rude or angry with me, I will try and use kind/gentle words to try and dissipate the argument. I have my faults, I am not saying I don't... but in general, I try to just be an overall kind person.
This has made me completely exhausted. I am not doing these things to receive something in return but I will be honest, it would be nice if someone ONCE offered to be a shoulder for me to cry on, offered to help me, held the door for me, or just said "thank you" for something as simple as offering to help with something.
I understand we are to love our enemies, be patient, kind, gentle, good, filled with self control, and live in peace will all... but has anyone else noticed this is becoming harder and harder?
Even my own family... there is so much toxicity within it I struggle to always be the one to be light. I am scared the world is making me become colder and harder because of getting walked on so much.
I will continue to love others and do my best to serve others... but is there a line that needs to be drawn? What happens when you feel completely burnt out and just trampled on because you're " too nice" or always bending over backwards for everyone.
Please pray for me in this season. In no way is my relationship with the Lord failing, but I will be honest, I am struggling with even Christians who just are the opposite of what the Word calls us to be.
I consider myself a kind person who tries to see the good in everyone. I try and go out of my way to make others feel welcome, loved, and respected. If someone asks a favor, I will do my best to help them the best that I can. If someone is rude or angry with me, I will try and use kind/gentle words to try and dissipate the argument. I have my faults, I am not saying I don't... but in general, I try to just be an overall kind person.
This has made me completely exhausted. I am not doing these things to receive something in return but I will be honest, it would be nice if someone ONCE offered to be a shoulder for me to cry on, offered to help me, held the door for me, or just said "thank you" for something as simple as offering to help with something.
I understand we are to love our enemies, be patient, kind, gentle, good, filled with self control, and live in peace will all... but has anyone else noticed this is becoming harder and harder?
Even my own family... there is so much toxicity within it I struggle to always be the one to be light. I am scared the world is making me become colder and harder because of getting walked on so much.
I will continue to love others and do my best to serve others... but is there a line that needs to be drawn? What happens when you feel completely burnt out and just trampled on because you're " too nice" or always bending over backwards for everyone.
Please pray for me in this season. In no way is my relationship with the Lord failing, but I will be honest, I am struggling with even Christians who just are the opposite of what the Word calls us to be.