Briefly, I grew up with a basic amil-outlook. I recall asking someone why I'd never heard stuff like I was reading in this book I picked up by HalLinsey, when I was about 10yrs old. Answer: if it was really in the Bible, I would have, right?
I flirted with postmil and recon ideas when I was in college; after which I decided I was "optimistic amil." I kept that stance until I was mostly through my seminary days. By the time I was ordained, I was clear, stating: "I am not a theonomist," to a session I'm pretty sure wanted me to say I was one.
My "earthly pessimism" has grown more convinced with age. I have great optimism about the kingdom of God, and the plundering of Satan's kingdom; I just do no longer retain specific expectations for history in the inter-advent. And if not for history, then also no "program" for improving the kingdoms of this world. One place may improve, another do even better on account of attendance on immovable truth; but man in his fallen condition is a thoroughgoing rebel to all law and restraint--even the law of gravity, or the law of non-contradiction.
I also doubt that, apart from special Providence, more-true-faith will yield more public benefits because of the presence of the church and true religion. I've come to doubt such a cause-effect relationship simply follows. Those who reap earthly benefits may intend to use the church and believers like Laban used Jacob & Co. for a season. The church's earthly increase is incidental; and it might please God to ordain earthly suffering by the church for its spiritual increase.
We quite reasonably pray for social stability, peace and security, and freedom for believers in time/place; as it generally seems better for us and our neighbors regardless of their religious profession. Our faith is perfectly compatible with divinely created nature. Yet, difficulty and contention with the world tends to reveal the actual troubled condition of men more readily than soothing comfort and convenience.
If there is "glory" for a church of the future: if in this world, that glory will be of the fading variety. As an amil I say there will be no seamless merging of the present into the eschaton. I have hope only for a visible glory for the church revealed in the age to come.
