Originally posted by victorbravo
That's interesting, Scott. I can only reflect on my own conversion. I believed in God long before I think I was regenerated.
I was actively rebellious against God and His Word up until my early 40s. Even so, I knew that Jesus existed. Strangely, I held the greatest contempt for preachers who did not take Jesus seriously. In my late teens and early twenties I would go to various churches. Almost every time, it was all I could do to keep myself from rising up during a service and shouting because the preaching was so weak and timid. Only once did I hear a preacher gladly: an old Oxford Anglican who proclaimed Christ as the sole and sufficient savior.
I revered the Bible and tried to make it fit my humanistic world-view. I didn't believe it, but I thought it was full of "great thoughts" and was culturally significant. I even read it, but I would just glide over the hard sayings, reckoning that they did not apply to someone as decent as I was.
The Spirit finally chose to pin me down to repentance. I could not escape the Truth. I don't believe I was regenerate until that moment, but the Spirit of God had, for sovereign and unknown reasons, stirred my heart from childhood. I knew God existed. I thought we could be mutually respectful of each other. But I was not His until He demanded it of me.
Vic