Thank you all for your wisdom and encouragement in this. It is good for me to hear more say to "slow down" in this transition, I do wish to do this wisely and with integrity, leading my family well.
Here's a good acid test you might want to consider that goes to the heart of the issue:
- How ready are you to have your own infant child baptized (I believe you've mentioned you and your wife have a new child)? 50% ready, 75% ready, or a this absolutely needs to get done ASAP?
- Perhaps to put a further point on it, do you see yourself in sin for not having had your covenant child baptized, not just on an intellectual level but on the conviction level?
I very much appreciate all the caution given. I would like to clarify where I find myself. although I started this thread months ago, I have been studying/moving in this direction intentionally for a year now and have been using my limited spare time to listen/read in many areas of polity, sacraments, covenant theology, the law, etc. though I dedicated much more time to it this summer and have come, I think, thoroughly to these convictions.
So though I certainly can/should consider more closely these matters, I don't think it's quite right to say that I'm making changes on a whim. No, I don't have the thorough reformed foundation of a seminary education from RTS or CTS, etc, but I didn't decide this last week either. I would say I am thoroughly convinced of covenant theology from Scripture, not just from reading books and listening to lectures. Regarding implications and counting the cost, what is downstream from convictions would be secondary to fidelity to Scripture, no? If I change my mind about Scripture because of practical things, that would be far worse. I am confident in this understanding of the Word, and trust the witness of the Confession and reformed tradition as a whole much more than my own perception. I got tired of doing my theology a la carte. Is this wrongheaded?
I have been walking through this with my wife and she is where I am as well (though more eager to move than I)
to answer your specific questions:
- I am 100% ready to have my daughter baptized (she is almost 2). I would say as soon as possible, Yes. but clearly, the possibility is a nuanced subject.
- Were I in a position to do so and withheld it, yes I would be in sin. However, as I am not currently in a position to do so, I think I would be in sin if I made rash decisions to achieve that end.
What classes do you have left? Perhaps that's a PM, which is fine.
To put it bluntly, I think uprooting your family to start all over again (a process that will take as long or longer than what I describe above) is rash. If I had a guy come into the church having done that, I'd be a little worried about unbridled zeal and what that could mean for the people of God in the future. How a man leads his family is indicative of how he will lead the church.
After this semester I will have:
- Apologetics
- Evangelism
- NT survey 1 (The Gospels) (Registered for Spring)
- Typical Problems in Counseling (taking it in the winter)
- Biblical Counseling Practicum (Registered for Spring)
- Preaching Practicum
- 1 free elective
to the suggestion I take seminary slower and work more, I'll clarify: I work full time so my wife can raise our daughter. When she came, I slowed down to 2 classes per regular semester, plus one in the winter and summer. At this pace, I would graduate next December. But I can't slow down or work more without stopping entirely, and my wife getting a job is not an option for us. I would have to switch jobs to something that would earn much more or provide tuition assistance. Most of the scholarships offered are only available for full-time, some kind of diversity thing (and I'm a young white male lol), or specific for those going into Baptist ministry, I haven't found any I would qualify for under new circumstances.
As to uprooting: we'll be starting all over again either way come graduation. We do not plan on staying in Lousiville but desire to find the right church to plant our family in, which does not exist here. I plan on taking a SLOW path to ordination; again, I have no delusion that I will be ordained in the next few years. I want to be a faithful church member at a church which we can agree with, learn from, grow in, and serve in. If we leave soon I would plan on finishing online since I am so close, because I do have that option with SBTS. So if I'm already having to change church AND work to stay here, is it really beneficial to be part of a church we don't plan on staying at for one year and then going to another church after that? not to mention switching jobs so often could put my family in a precarious financial situation, particularly because we need healthcare for my wife. But it may be worth this just to get the degree finished. That's what I'm wrestling with.